Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Now They Know.
On Holy Ground.


Sunday, September 25, 2011
Weekends Are For...
Friday, September 23, 2011
Tea With My Mom.
I remember a day in March, two and a half years ago. It was the only day, the only time, I can remember doing this. I was so exhausted from teaching, so worn out from life, that I drove after school straight to her Victorian farmhouse home. She walked around the counter, saw me at the door, wiped her hands on her apron, and hugged me. Surprised to see me, it being four in the afternoon, she knew my heart and head were full, tousled.
So she stopped her baking and cooking. Set aside her recipes, her plans, her day, and stood still with me. We stayed in the kitchen for a few minutes. Me, trying to act like everything was fine. But her, knowing to read between the lines of my face and words. And then, she suggested we have tea.
So two cups were stirred, rich tea steaming out the pot, strings like dainty delicacy down the side. And she looked at me, led me to the porch, and I knew she felt my heart, and that I just needed to sit.
The porch was yellow. Sunshine yellow. With big floral patterns in spaces, brown wicker with overstuffed cushions, bright colored settings, and the Front Porches coffee table book I had bought for her a year before. Tea pots hung like lanterns from the walls, birdhouses to be exact, and the new, yet worn cabinet chested cups and saucers and petals and papers.
She settled in across from me, and sighed in her listening, contented, mother-like sound. And waited.
I wanted to act like everything was fine. I wanted to keep it all pulled together. To look and appear perfect and whole. But she knew more. She knew I wouldn't have come here if I wasn't in need of her. If I didn't desire for that mother-heart of hers. That love, that nurture. That holding of me.
And so I started, "I just can't do it all... I'm just so tired inside..." I began to cry, feeling the weight of my heart, and then in guilt began again, "I know people have harder lives than me... I know people are dying today, starving, or raising children on their own..."
I don't remember the rest of this conversation. I just remember her loving me and knowing me and caring about me. But I do I remember one thing she said, one thing that I have held on to. "It's okay. It's okay to feel sad today. Yes, people are dying of disease in Africa. Yes, people are getting divorced and hurting. But that doesn't change that today, you just feel sad and you just feel bad. It's okay."
It was the first time I had ever heard her say that, ever felt her let me be okay with hurting. Ever let me crumble without being strong. But I remember it, I remember the gift of that.
And I remember this day, this tea with mom. This place of rest and safety and love. This place where she walks around corners and smiles, and wipes her apron and sighs, and hugs and bakes and lets me be. This place where I am me, and I am loved, and I am having tea with my mom.
Thursday, September 22, 2011
The Chase.
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Thankful for Perspective.
Agents of Change.
Agents of Change: Perspective in the Battle; Perspective in the Classroom; Perspective in the World.
We sat in a circle. All 34 of us. Closely knit already, woven like friendships and family more than students and teacher. Our desks, touching our papers spread.
I handed out packets, pencils in their hands, the study of history aside, and began: “Slavery exists in the world today.” Their eyes looked up. “In your lifetime, slavery exists. There are 27 million people who are slaves right this moment, in this world. That is more than the time of Abraham Lincoln. More than anytime in history.” And their eyes held mine.
I went on to tell a story, about a friend of mine in India, being offered a man’s daughter, a four year old girl, for a dollar. For sex. I read a paragraph from the packet, accosting them with the price of slaves: $25 dollars today. They were $40,000 in the Antebellum South ($1,000 equivalent to $40,000 today).
They stared. Speechless. I told them about a friend in Southeast Asia, who saw young girls stored underground until nighttime fell and men came to defile them. About fathers in Africa who offer their daughters a better life in the city, only to be betrayed by the lure of the businessmen.
They write their responses. Quiet and pensive, but scrolling on paper: “How could someone do something like this with no sorrow or regrets?” “I am horrified; I feel sad and angry, shocked.”
We read sentences. Stories. Lives. Reality of fingers cut off, wrists hung and torn, skin mangled to smell of rotten flesh. The quotes of those who remain scare our own emotions, as we listen to theirs: “God created me to be a slave, just as he created a camel to be a camel.” “I am no star; I’m just a whore. That’s all.” “For ten years, I had no one to laugh with. For ten years, nobody loved me.”
The room is still. Quiet. Angst and anticipation crowd the corners. The students say nothing, do little except stare at me and their work, unable to respond, to answer. Tears threaten a few. My own heart pounds out beats. They pencil thoughts: “How can people come in and murder people? The kid name the rest – innocent men, women, and children alike?” “To slaves that slaves were hurt is an understatement. People fix cars of bikes better than they fix their slaves…These slaves are tortured, mutilated, punished so severe…”
I linger slowly, punctually over facts: details of capture, torture, selling, holding. I assign the paragraph: “Serious punishment includes the feared ‘insect treatment’ in which tiny ants are stuffed into a slave’s ears, and the ears are then bound tightly by a scarf. The slave is left tied u for several days, after which, Human Rights Watch says, the slave will do what he or she is told.”
I speak about 485 and 77, the junction between two major highways near us, and display the article from the Charlotte Observer about it’s slave passageway; its transfer of human life. She speaks: “Why are we not doing more to stop it?”
We are cold, hardened; now hurting. We are shocked, softened. We are perplexed, purposeful.
I stop. Pause. Breathe.
I armor them. My world changers: my warriors against battles I cannot fight alone. I give them places to be more. To be greater than a student in a desk, an adolescent in their home. Organizations, people, places to join with, to fight with.
So we start today. World changing. Going from content to coin collecting. Gathering a jar of coins to fight modern slavery. Loose Change to Loosen Chains. More than an issue. More than a reading. More than a class period.
We are more. We are students. We are agents. We are agents of change.
Monday, September 19, 2011
Courage.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Rosemary and Peppers.

Wedges of grilled chicken, tossed with slices of green peppers, halves of juicy cherry tomatoes, and slivers of red onion. Doused with rosemary garlic specialty blend, drops of olive oil, and flames... and you have.... dinner...

Weekends Are For...




With Me, Mark, Morning.
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Date with Jesus.
Saturday, September 3, 2011
Hold Back Secrets.
Morning in the Mountains.
